Do you ever wonder?

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Do you ever wonder?

I had to take a questionnaire from the school psychologist. One of the questions was....My child is enjoyable to be around. You answer with 

1-not true ever 

2-sometimes true and 

3-always true. 

I was teary eyed having to answer with a 1. She's not enjoyable. She's a pain in the butt. I know that is cruel, but it takes such a toll on you when it is every waking moment. I think I need to pray for patience and the ability to love her more. 

Do you ever wonder why we go through what we go through? Why do I have a child that is so "not normal" that she's not enjoyable to be around and is a challenge all the time. It doesn't matter that it's not her fault. She has intractable epilepsy (uncontrolled seizures). The location of her seizures are in the frontal lobe which effect her behavior. That doesn't make it any easier to deal with the behavior. Why does Travis have an absolutely sweet, sweet little girl that is such a pleasure to be around that everyone wants to have her around and yet she is suffering so severely that the parents want her to move on to the next life instead of continuing to endure her pain and suffering.  www.prayforari.blogspot.com

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I decided that it was very necessary for me to go to www.lds.org and look for some answers. I know I know the answers, but at the same time I need reassurance. 

Elder Quintin L. Cook, quorum of the twelve apostles:

We resonate with the Prophet Joseph’s petition after he had been falsely accused and imprisoned in Liberty Jail for months: “O God, where art thou? And where is the pavilion that covereth thy hiding place?”

The Lord’s answer is reassuring:

“My son, peace be unto thy soul; thine adversity and thine afflictions shall be but a small moment;

“And then, if thou endure it well, God shall exalt thee on high.”

Elder Quintin L. Cook also said,

"This life is not always easy, nor was it meant to be; it is a time of testing and proving."

I guess that is an answer to my question...Do you ever wonder?